Dec 17: Cool
There’s something about playing my songs on guitar that makes me feel so cool.
I am decidedly not cool, just to be clear. (Although my 5yo daughter says I am, so there!)
But there’s this aura around other guitarists that makes them look cool, so when I play a song, I feel like I might gain some of that aura as well.
I definitely need to work on my confidence.
Dec 18: My songs
I played today!
Yes, I know, it’s Saturday. But I won’t have time to play tomorrow because we’re making Christmas cookies, like, all day.
I only played my two songs though. I don’t think I got the rhythms right on the wedding song.
Dec 19: Sunday is the new Saturday?
I didn’t even touch my guitar today.
*reaches out and touches it*
There. I touched it.
No playing happened though. My chronic back injury acted up today, so it didn’t seem smart to play when that usually makes my back hurt.
Dec 20: The wedding song
When I wrote the wedding song, I tried to put myself in Tommy’s place (Tommy is my character who “wrote” the song) at the time in the story. At that point, he had seen the couple interact in person at Thanksgiving, Christmas, and over March Break, and over video chat. So I broke the song down into four verses, one for each season. And the second verse is the one set at Christmas. Every time I sing that verse I get this overwhelming urge to read that short story.
I guess that’s a sign of good writing? 🤷🏼♀️
My kids asked me to sing it twice today. I’m glad they’re not bored of it yet.
I also played a couple Christmas songs from my books. Lots of C7 chords. I guess I need to cut my baby fingernail, because it keeps getting in the way.
Dec 21: Rhythm improvement
I played the rhythms in my Christmas book today and they came much more naturally. That’s really nice to see progress.
I’m still not sure what rhythms I’m doing for the wedding song. But my kids begged me to play it a second and then a third time, so I must be doing something right, right?
Dec 22: Ego and confidence
I played songs from my app first today. Tbh, I didn’t do as well as I’d like. It’s ok, I’m getting better slowly.
Then I played my songs. My eldest asked for a repeat of the wedding song, and then as I was about to pack up, my youngest asked for a repeat of Get to Know You.
You haven’t heard cute until you hear a 2yo ask for you to sing a song you wrote with big puppy dog eyes.
So obviously, I played it again.
It’s really good for my ego that they liked my songs so much. I know they’re heavily biased, but it’s still really nice.
I’m working on building up my confidence in my singing, mostly for the wedding song. If I don’t know a song really well, I sing quieter than I play. So I guess I’m getting more confident in my guitar skills, which is a positive.