Sep 18: Audience
I was sitting in my living room today, trying to get up the spoons to practice, and I was trying to figure out whether I should bring my guitar up to play for my family, or play in the basement by myself.
I was leaning towards the basement because playing in front of an audience is nerve-wracking, when I realized that I needed to play in front of them to get used to doing it.
If my publisher accepts this book and if they like the song, then I’ll ask them if they want me to play it for the book trailer and at the book launch. (Two very big ifs, imho)
So yeah, I need to get used to it.
I brought up my guitar and played my song. (I didn’t do a lesson today because I’m low on spoons)
Much to my delight, I discovered that my 2yo son also knows the lyrics to my song, not just my turning-five-tomorrow years old daughter.
I do sing it to him every night at bedtime, but he doesn’t sing along with me normally.
He was behind by a word, so it was hilarious to try to practice my song with him singing along, but omg he practically kept up.
It’s one thing to have written a song that they enjoy.
It’s a whole other level that they like it so much that they sing along with me.
Sep 19: Pros and cons
There are pros and cons to practicing my guitar in the living room.
Pros: practicing for an audience, being with my family, warmer than 16C (our basement has a heating issue), sometimes they sing along
Cons: I can’t do my lessons because the kids won’t stop screaming (although since my lesson right now is that awful riffs lesson, this might fall into the pro category…)
I played my song a whole bunch of times today. It’s starting to feel more natural, I think.
I played a bunch of other songs, too, and that was a lot of fun.
It’s my daughter’s fifth birthday today. I can’t believe it’s been five years!
Sep 20: Short but sweet
I played too long yesterday and ended up with tingling fingers today when I started to play.
So I skipped my lesson again and practiced my chords and my song.
I am feeling ever more confident about it.
It’s a nice feeling to have.
Sep 21: Strumming
I didn’t do a lesson today.
I did practice my song and my chords.
My son strummed while I practiced different chords. That was fun.
Sep 22: Repetition
I didn’t do a lesson again today. Tbh, I’m a little intimidated at this point. Once I finish the riffs, the next chord lesson is my nemesis…. The F major chord. I don’t think I will be able to pass any of those lessons. I tried the F chord today, and was barely able to manage it, after much adjustment. It hurt my hand and wrist a little.
I played my chords and my song multiple times.
My son pulled the kid’s xylophone over and played it while I practiced. It’s very hard to keep tune while a different song is being banged out at your feet.
Or maybe it’s just me.
I have my writer’s group tonight… The last one before I surprise them with a performance. I’m nervous and have no reason to be (today). I hope I won’t be in a constant state of nerves for the next two weeks!
Sep 23: Short again
I played my song several times. I know exactly where I need to practice.
I’ve decided not to feel guilty about not doing the lessons. I just don’t have the spoons to deal with them right now.